Are you faking your peace? Online, in person, in prayer... are you facing your day with arms wide open for the good AND the bad? Or, are you on guard?
Feeling rejection and “failing” according to an expectation you (or someone else) put on yourself hurts.
It’s shameful and it’s uncomfortable. It represents some divide between our ideal self and our actual self. And above all, it’s frustrating! It’s frustrating to think the good and perfect Lord of your life is putting something ugly in your path.
But, then... where’s the massive joy? How can you jump and shout and celebrate something if you haven’t been waiting anxiously for it? How can you rejoice in a rescue without needing the rescue in the first place?
The bad stuffs that come with letting down your guard of control allow you to feel them — which sucks, yes. But it also FREES you to the true wave of mountains and valleys God has written in your story. Sometimes we gotta seek the mountains by allowing for the valleys.
When you accept darkness, you recognize light. And it doesn’t have to feel like failure. It actually feels like faith.
Someone, somewhere is waiting for something created by you to exist.
Sometime soon another human will come across something made by you and they will love it. And they may or may not know that it was you behind that love, and it’s okay either way. But it exists. Whatever it is.
It exists because you followed God’s call to make it.
Following the passion the Lord’s calling you to follow isn’t selfish — it’s an act of worship. To embrace our unique spiritual gifts will present opportunities we could not ever have created without the Holy Spirit stirring that passion inside of us.
If you’re feeling convicted to pursue something and deep down you’re scared it’s selfish, ask yourself where the passion is rooted.
If you’re chasing fame, wealth, or earthly security — honey, dats da devil. But if you’re chasing relation, service, love, and joy, HELLO JESUS. And it’s ok to pursue the things that will glorify Him. It’s really the only purpose worth pursuing.
If at the end of the day you’re still sitting inside holding back in restlessness, fearful of what everyone might think, consider this post a virtual hug. You gots at least one friend already.
HEYO. I'm Chlo.
So the basic gist is I’m really just tired of comparing myself to perfect people on the Internet, when I know for a fact that "perfect" doesn't exist. This here is a snippet of my inner thoughts and tidbits of experience, based on my twenty-something years of good ole fashioned, really really messy life.
My wish is for this blog to serve the small voices inside all of us that might have forgotten what being honest online can look like. Leave the hustle behind you, because this here is about HEART.
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