I’m scared to start fresh.
I’m scared to feel as overwhelmed as I did last semester. I’m scared to fail. I’m scared to let my guard down and be a lil wacky because all of a sudden it might mean I’m real and maybe I won’t like who I really am. I’m scared to fly down a hill too fast and lose my balance and tumble and break a figurative limb because I thought I could recklessly handle the busyness I felt drawn to join.
But you know what? Guess what God created before ANYTHING else. Guess what he created before trees and stars and humans. Guess what existed before the fall of humanity and all that shame and fear and regret stuff ever even came into play.
God LET in LIGHT before he let it ANYTHING else.
Maybe you’re nervous for next semester, too. Maybe you, too, don’t know what’s gonna happen and you’re trying trying trying to trust and have faith and smile through it all but deep down (or on the surface?) you’re scared of feeling out of control.
Friend, you were never IN control and THAT’S the beauty of this whole idea. You were designed to follow and to love, and if you ever find yourself doubting and stressing and freaking the freak out at all that’s about to go down — find the light and LET. IT. IN.
Love anyways. Laugh anyways. Live anyways.
Your God will love you back.
Hi, I'm Chlo.
I've been writing and reading and all the storytelling things since I learned as a kid that if you fold and staple construction paper together, it sort of looks like a real book. I have always craved soul serving stories- ones that melt like butter in your mind as you hear your heart explained out loud.
This here is my home away from home. When I'm not exploring neighborhood coffeehouses, driving down the Pacific Coast (again), or loving on all my people - I'm probably here, with you. Come on in! Scroll around. I hope you feel less alone.