It's okay to just sit a bit in this space you’re currently in. It’s hard to feel - really feel - your own unknown. Feeling the feeling waiting to be felt. Not googling one more thing, not asking one more person for advice, not going after that cope cope cope for whatever answer makes sense.
When we cope we ignore that which MUST command our attention.
And it will continue to insist on attention through however desperately we get to until we face our space head on.
This fall I took a step back from social media for a little over one month to live and breathe outside and away from my phone and its addictive hold on my life. I gave myself the freedom to be uncomfortable in line at Starbucks, at a dinner table with a large group of friends, walking to class earbud-free, or inside of general boredom.
Holy cow did I learn a lot, even from just one month without my apps. Nowadays, I have this practice set into my routine as a preventative health tool during crazy and anxious seasons.
Here is what I learned:
Not every day, but more frequently than some, I end my day with a sobfest-style panic attack.
Panic attacks are different for absolutely everyone. No panic attack for me is the same, though I’ve definitely caught on to my triggers and repetition of behavior.
I learned from my counselor this week how mindfulness and tapping into what it feels like to be at “peace” is comparable to eating healthy / taking some vitamins / drinking lots of water / etc. - you do these things to prevent or diminish the effects of getting sick.
Hi, I'm Chlo.
I've been writing and reading and all the storytelling things since I learned as a kid that if you fold and staple construction paper together, it sort of looks like a real book. I have always craved soul serving stories- ones that melt like butter in your mind as you hear your heart explained out loud.
This here is my home away from home. When I'm not exploring neighborhood coffeehouses, driving down the Pacific Coast (again), or loving on all my people - I'm probably here, with you. Come on in! Scroll around. I hope you feel less alone.